A release of energy, of toxins
A contortion of muscles, a downturn at the corners of the mouth
The tenderness of your body, inside and out–everything is sharp, everything hurts
The feeling that this feeling will never stop
Until it does.
The waterworks subside, muscles relax, a few final shuddering breaths to renew the system
Do you ever think about how much you cried as a child compared to now? I can remember crying almost daily as a child, and at the smallest of things. I dropped a plate. A loved or worshiped one shooed me away. Someone made fun of me. I fell and scraped my knees. I embarrassed myself one way or another. I’m tired and frustrated and don’t know how to express it. I remember hating the fact that I cried so often and wishing I were an adult so I wouldn’t have to. Continue reading